aq sc Ð zeaezk aq sc `nlra `nbec Ð '...dicicn lik`c zliy xa l`eny ax oebk ax xn`c,axck :iia` xn` `l`' oicd oi` envr zliy xa l`eny ax la`,jlnd ceary eilr oi`e eikxv lk el yiy ezenk mc`l hwp Ð l`eny zia i"tr).mgk zyzn dxezdy itl,zay axrl zay axrn mzper mkg cinlz ixdy,ok.(`,er ax oebk' yxtn `ede.dxez ipa md elit` mei lka oiliih zpery hwp (`"wq nx) mdxa`-obnd mle`e meia micnely,mzepne` mzxezya `l` xn` `l l`eny-ziad s`y d`xpe.eheytk 'zliy xa l`eny oic mdl yi,mi`ixa mde mdikxv lk mdl yie,dxeza mpnf lk miwqer oi`y dxez ipa la`,dlilae.jenqa r"re.(gk b"g r"d` dyn zexb`a cciv ok).oiliih 'dpwf zrl gip` dn...`bxca wilqw ded opgei iax...ip`a ia i`w ded eda` iax...oiliih i`n' one,icn xzei eaxi `l miliihd mbe,`ed 'miliih' llka gk el yiy in lk `ly cnll o`k el` miyrn e`iady d`xp Ð gk xqg eteb Ð 'arx eriayn' (:ap dkeqa) i"yx yxity enke,ezepwf inil egk xenyi `l` elig miypl ozi `ly ie`xd.dpwf zrl arxe o`kn Ð 'zeyixte oiaw dxyrn zeltze awa dy` dvex :dil xn`?i`n lnb dyrpe xng' (a"r) m`y,dpera e` zepefn zgeexda dl gep m`,zg`e zg` lk ly dzrca miaygzn oi`y x`ean gep did miyp mzq m` i`ce `l` Ð dit z` dl`ype dy`l `xwp,xaca wtzqdl yi mewn dn,ok dn itl,zn`d itl s` `ed oke],lnb zeyrdl leki did,dperd zripn lr zepefn zgeexda mdl ipevx oi` xnel dleki oi`e,[dgeexda dl gep,jlnd zceara oebk dlecb dgeexday 'qezd eazky.ehx oycd znexz i"tr).dfa `veik lka oicd oke.d`yp `zlnc `nzq zrc lr ik,legnl wgeca zeigl aiegn epi`,dvex dpi`y zgeeve zcner elit`y,ztqep `xaql mewn yi 'd`yp ok zrc lr' zxaq `ll s` lka dagxda y"re.gk i"qeq b"g r"d` dyn zexb` 'r.miyp daxd jxc ok did `l m` zeltize awa dpevx liaya dqpxt.(oiprd.ixetikc `nei ilrn lk dizial iz` dedc libx ded.`fegna `axc dinw giky ded inegx ax',dzrc ylg.`z` `l.iz` `zyd,iz` `zyd,edziac `ikqn ded,`zrny dizkyn cg `nei.'diytp gpe dizezn `xbi` zigt`,`xbi`a aizi ded.dpirn `zrnc zig` elit`e,zlefa rebtl oevxe dpeek dzid `ly s`,xrea xepzl ci zqpkdk denk,exiaga mc` zribt Ð dkynpy `l` dpeek `ll did exegi`y,o`k mb okle.wefip,eci lr rbtp exiagy lk,daeh ezpeek m` eweliq lr dktyy i`cee,exegi`n dnke dnk it ezy`l dyw did ezen ixde.rbtp,xgi`e ezreny zlefa dribt lky,df `ed rah wgk,ok it lr s` Ð dxwi jky dvex dzid `le,zg` drncn xzei (a"lyz a ;`"lyz ck Ð uila`eny g"xbl xqen zegiy).rbetd mc`a zrbet Ð lka dpd Ð 'diytp gpe hilyd iptln `veiy dbbyk i`ed' oldl exn`y dna yxtl yi dfl aexwe o`k la`,'dyri ei`xi oevx' meyn `ed,zeniiwzny miwicv ly mdizellwe mdizekxaa epivny mewn xn`py enk,dpeek `ll s` raha lret yecw dt ly exeaicy gken `l`,zeniy llk epevx oi` `ld m`y `l`.mc`d xeaica `xead rahy rah `ed ok Ð ux` cqile miny rhpl Ÿ...jita ixac mu`e cr jezgl egka oi`e dcelg dlrdy oikqd enk,ogek ylged,mixeq` mixeaica eizty mc`d `nih (mixery uaew).dcelgd epnn exiqiy 21
aq sc Ð zeaezk mei axray itl,yecwd meia ezial xfge,ezaiyi z`e eax z` cinlzd afry ep` mi`ex,ab` Ð.my xqen zegiy).exiagl mc` oiay eipipr lk z` owzl mc`d lr mixetikd cxiy xiky eze`a :fkw zaya oke.`axc dixa sqei axa.bq oldlcke,mzial mixetkd mei axra aeyl mbdpn did oke.(my 'miycg micbn'a xirdy enke Ð oeilrd lilbn axr ly Ð 'iyniy ia lk' eyxt miyxtnd aex Ð...'i`pi iaxc dipzg `iig iaxc dixa dcedi' `lde,dhind z` etky dfn ezii`x d`xpke.y"r,mei lk lr yxit (qy 'iq seq) rexf xe`a mle`.zay qpkzy mcew,dlw dry zela` bedpl i`pt did oiicry,zegcl yie.zaya `iqdxta zelia` oi`.zayd lap' dfl `xw (miyecw yix) o"anxde.'oilebpxzk mdizeyp lv` g"z oiievn edi `ly' exn` `eld,dywe?'eidz miyecw' zevn d`a df lre,'dxezd zeyxa jlnly xnel yi my ik m`.(.fw oixcdpq) jlnd cec lr df oirk exn`y dnn zeywdl yi dfa `veike ezenkyle el elit` dpeekd 'zliy xa l`eny iax oebk' lirl exn`y dny gken `di dfne.liih oic yi,cecn di`xd zegcl yi oke.(er q"x) 'l`eny zia'dk `lc dfe.w"nhya azky enke.mkg cinlz,ynn.zeax miyp el eidy iptn lkne,eaxwa llg eale 'ciqg' envrl `xwy jlnd cecn cenll epl oi`y,`ed xac ly exwir j`.cala devnl mzpeek lke,xedh mal didy,ea `veik zeevnd ik,dyecw gex zxxerzn df ici lr xy`k Ð xacd `vi yecw xewnn m` rcil oniqde gexyk ok oi`y dn.zeevn siqedl xxerzn jkae.dixg`le oziiyr iptl,mc`d ala dyecw zeqipkn.(jxe`a y"r 8 Ð 12 'nr.oilaeln odkd v"xl 'miyecw l`xyi').dyecwd jetid `edy,edrzd mireer Ð zecb` iyecg).ezial ezkilen dpikydy,yexit Ð '`xepc `cenr dinw ifg `w ded iz` ded ike' (l"xdn (fvy c"ei ;d,fi r"d`) miwqeta `aeny it lr s` Ð 'ezper lhia `l miiw dcedi ilnli`y ezhn etk',xg`l ezy` `ypz `ny lewlw xveei `ly ick,zny ze`cea xxaziy cr mc` lr la`zdl oi`y Ð?zela` bdp recne,ezy` z` mi`iyn oi` ezper lhia `l miiw did ilnli`y efk dgkeda ixde.awri zeay i"tr).lewlw yyg oi`y,la`zdl xzen Ð skiz xxazdl xyt`y aexw mewnay d`xp.(eh a"g mixyn aaec z"eya 'r wqri` lif` cec ig` irnyn iz` `iig iaxe lhia` oa dihtyn iz` iax,zegtyna epiire eaizi' itl el die`x dzid `ly i"yxt lr zvw zeywdl azk l"xdnd Ð '`xnif oa iqei 'x ia dixal dil `ypidl mikixv eid ike,iax ly ezia x`y oke,cecn did `xnf oa iqei iaxy oipn Ð cec zian didy.cec zian wx yiy milez eid `le,irnyn dfe dihtyn `a df ik,leqt mey e`vn `le ewcay,jtdl yxit jkle.dzn dnvrn dxrpd wx leqt o`k akri` :dil xn`.i`gei oa oerny iaxc dileld idliya ax ial lif`w ded i`pikg oa dippg iax' Ð...'ax iaa ipy ixq ixz aizi lf`.dil `akri` `l.jcda iz`c cr il 22
bq sc Ð zeaezk `l m`y s`y,eprny lecb xac,xnel yi.'dfa eprinyd dn dxe`kl ze`xl yi' :siy m"xdn azk dryl elit` dpzndd zpkqy,oiznd `l z`f lka,dxez cenll ezenk aeh xag el didi `l,el oizni.rbxd z` uingi `ly calae i"ayxk `zexag lr xzeel el i`ck did.`id dlecb,zhren z` dl`y el`y zg` mrt ;l"vf g"xbd ly einia oifeleea rxi`y xac lr,l"vf ia` ipec`n izlawe xrv aexne.zeprl rci `le,zetqeza yxetn xacd dide,ezcerq rvn`a,daiyia xzeia lecbd iwad.dnevr dcnzda cnle mipy ray my ayie,xzq mewnl wxr,oefnd zkxa jxa `le ezcerq xnb `l.l`xyi ilecbn cg`l dyrpe ezcerq rvn`n mwy,oick `ly dyry s`y,dpr,dyr aeh m` l"vf miig 'x oe`bd z` el`yyke `le,xzqidl daiyid on gxea did `l,oefnd zkxa jkxane oick dyer did eli`,jci`n,dkxa `la g"xbl xqen zegiy).didydde xegi`d zpkq lceb d`xe `ea Ð.efk dcnzda mipy ray dxeza wqer did (`"lyz l fh mixn`n,uial`eny 'mpeylke mazkk' ocrne dzeye lke`y in epiidc,'edrc jikxc lka' weqt lr m"anxd azky epivn dizeekce...' `zknq` el` mixace.dprzny enk xky el yi z"iyd zcearl wfge ixa didiy ick eytp miwqere mdipirn dpiy oixcpn minkg icinlz yiy,epiidc Ð 'ek mew inikyn mkl `ey :`xw` weqrl al zefixfe wfege gk mdl didiy ick daxd mipyiy minkg icinlz yie,daxd dxeza yi mdipy i`ceae.zery ipya wqere xrhvn dfy dn zg` drya cenll leki zn`ae.dxeza xweaa minikyne mixrhvn mz`y mkl mpga,epiidc Ð mkl `ey :xn` ok lr.deya xky mdl daxd oyiy in epiidc,dpy ecicil ozi ok ik,mpga df,mkzpy mihrnne dlila zay ixg`ne,envr xrhvne dpiya hrnny eze` enk dxeza ewlg d"awd el ozep,dxeza egen wfgiy ick (`,dk r"d` f"h)...'daygnd xg` jled lkd ik Ð '...zxaey dgp`'.zg` dgp` i`ck epi` elek mlerd lk' :dad`a oixeqi zlawa cnelnd,cg` mkg mrt xn` dktede eala dyaek mixeqid lray zg` dgp` zekfa `l` `xap `l elek mlerd lk la`.('wfew edizzn ly eixace eizenelg' '` jxk,dyrn iyp`e miciqg :jezn).'dppxl bq sc yxit Ð '...zxcp in dax `xabc `zrc` dil xn` diabl `z`,i`xcp xtnc xyt` diabl lifi`',envr ixcp xizn eli`ke xaca rbep `edy oeik excp z` el xizd `l `aiwr iaxy (ez daeyza) y"aixd,xizdl lekiy my y"aixd zrc Ð mirbep mpi`y mixg` mipy sexivae].cala gztd el gzty `l` mixg` sexivay ixd,cyg meyn `ed xizn epi`y mrhd m`y y"xa rnyne.mirbpc a"teq up`yn y"xr.miwleg yie sexiva s`,'exac lgi `l'c aezkd zxfbn xizn epi`e envr ixcpk oecipy meyn `ed mrhd m`e,xizdl leki miceyg mpi`y.['mixery uaew'.ixzqc izxzk d`xpy oeir jixve.mixg` sexiva xizn df mrh itl s`y d`xp y"aixa mle`e.xizn epi` 23
mekiql zeaeyze zel`y aqð`qmitc mi`veiyk xcrdl mdl ie`x onf dnke?zeyxa `ly mzian xcrdl milretle micinlzl xzen onf dnkl.`.fhw?zeyxa?mipeyd miyp`l dxeriy idn,dxeza dxen`d dperd.a.xfril` iax ixac.zg` zay Ð milretd.mei miyly zeyxa `ly dxez cenlzl mi`vei micinlzd.`,xfril` iax ixac ef :ax xn` dad` xa `c` axe.(`ax hwpy d`xp oke).ax mya `pexa ax wqt oke.zeyxa `ly mipy ylye mizy dxez cenlzl mi`vei micinlzd :mixne` minkg la`,zewlgod xac lkl).ax ixack Ð ziaa ycg zeidle ycg z`vl ux` jxc,dy`d zeyxa mi`veiyk eidi ycg).eziaa mipye o`k ycg :xn` opgei iax.(dpyd iycg lkl ycga ycg z`veide d`ad ddeye ycg `veiy opgei iax dceny rnyn,('qezr) daexn geix mewnae].(eziaa miycg mipy oepala.[ycg ekli odilray dligzkln zevexe zegnyd miyp la`,z`vl dzeztl mikixvyk xaecn.` i"tr).minkg x`ye `aiwr iax oebk,daexn onfl s` `vei Ð minkg icinlz eidie cenll.(jka wlgn epi`y d`xp y"`xa mi`aend c"a`xd ixacne.'qez zeyxae,ziaa cg` mei zeidle ycg zeyxa `ly elit` z`vl mileki micinlzdy yxit i"xe Ð miycg e` ycg x`yidle ycg z`vl ux` jxc `xnba exn`y dne,xzei s` mi`vei.exn` zeyxa mi`veid milreta `iade.ux` jxc `l` xeqi` xaca oi`y iptn,lwind axk zeyrl yiy azk y"`xde.opgei iaxk bedpl yiy d"nxdn hinyde).zeyxa `ly mipy ylye mizy elit` mi`veiy,dad` xa `c` axk wqt m"anxd.a `l` xaic `l m"anxd s`y xyt`e.mei miyly wqt s"ixde.(zereny ixry 're.lret z`ivi oic,ezepne` ezxezy in epl oi`y dzr df itle,[c"a`xd wligy weligke] ezepne` ezxezy ina.(`îbty y"ayx z"ey i"tr).mei miyly ux` jxc mipeye mxira ievn maxy micinlz :'oiliih' yxit `ax.mei lka Ð oiliihd ;dxeza dxen`d dperd.a,mdn qpxtzne zewepiz cnln didy zliy xa l`eny ax oebk yxite dgc iia`e.mdizaa miple mwxt miwpetnd oebk :xn` oiax.(miwqetd e`iad oke) jlnd zcear ler eilr oi`e ezia lva ole elyn dzeye lke`.(i"yx.gk ilrae mi`ixae dzyne lk`na mibpern).l`xyi ux`ay.e`l m` liih oic el yi m`,bpern `edy dxez oaa miwqetd ewlgp.zaya zg` Ð zxg` xira la`,oxira dk`ln miyera :eyxite.zaya mizy Ð milretd mizy mzper Ð mxira dk`ln miyer ;milreta zecn yly [i"x yexitk `lc] a"aix ixacl mpi`.jxcd gxeh iptn,zaya zg` Ð mzial mei lka mixfege zxg` xira miyer.zaya Ð zepyl `ay `l` jk mbdpn did `ly oia jk mbdpn didy oia,mei lka mzial mixfeg.ipinyd meia mixfege zayl mi`vei.zaya zg` Ð mixngd iptn,g"z lv` z`f exikfdy dne],zay lila dperd onf reawl mixnge milret lr devne zexb` i"tr).[ze`ivnd cvn zaya mpnf d"`la mixngy iptn ile`e.xzei jka mixidf mdy.(aw `"g r"d` dyn 54
mekiql zeaeyze zel`y.mei miylyl zg` Ð milnbd.xfril` iax ixac.miycg dyyl zg` Ð miptqd miyp`k edixd i`ce,eziaa ddey `ed xy`k la`,ezial ueg biltn `edyk xen` 'otq' oic.(gk b"g r"d` dyn zexb` i"tr).lrete liihk,o`k mireawd.dfa `veik lk oke.ezy` zeyxa `ly lnb dyrii `l xngd mle`.dk`lnl dk`lnn jk xg` zepyl leki,oi`eyipd zrya llk zepne` el dzid `l m`.(g"wq er wwegn zwlg i"tr).dzeyx `ll lnb e` xng zeidl i`yx epi`y xnel yi liih.(l`eny xn` dcedi ax) zay axrl zay axrn Ð minkg icinlz zper `xap eay itl,ernynk 'zay axr' oiad (e 'or') jexrd mle`e.zay lil eyxt miyxtnd lk.`.oey`xd mc` aiig,zay lila ynyln rpnp idylk daiqn m`e,zayl zg` `ed g"z zper aeig mvra.a mivex m` rpndl mi`yxe,dlik`k `wec zay lila aeig oi` oke.xg` meia dper zevn meyn dn lr c`n dnze.gk b"ge aw `"g r"d` dyn zexb` i"tr).yelw mrha s`e,edylk mrhn mdipy.(reayd rvn`a aiig epi` zay lila qep` did m`y dkxa-wifgnd mya eazky zper miiwl g"zl [gk i"qeq b"g r"d` n"b` 'r.aiigl s`e] uril yi eppnfay mipexg` eazk.b.(`,nx dkld xe`a i"tr) mc`d gk itl lkd xwirde.zaya miinrt,milret.devn xacl jled epi` m` jxcl `veiy dryae,dzliah lila ezy` z` cewtl jixv mc` lk.c ezrc oziy ick eiptl dnvr zhywne eze` dvxne ezlcyn `idy ezy`a xikn m` oke.(`,nx g"e`).dcwtl aiig Ð dilr mrhe,dlral zie`zne zwwezyn dy`d xy`k `ed `zixe`c dper aeig xwiry d`xp zie`zn `id izn xikn lrad oi`e od zerepv miyp mzqy itl `ed minkg erawy mixeriyd xzeil ewwezyi `l oaexy miypd zrc z` [yi`d gk caln] ecn`y mipnf eraw jkl,el.(gk b"g r"d` dyn zexb` i"tr).lrad zcxha orcia.(miwqet).dpwfe dxwr oebk,mipa za dpi`y dy`a mb zkiiy dper zevn.d bq sc?ezy` lr cxend oic dne?dk`lnne yinyzn,dlra lr zcxend ly dpic dn.fiw 55 mizget,dk`lnn s` [`ped axk `lc] `pipg iaxa iqei iax ixacke,dhnd yinyzn dlra lr zcxend i`vg dray Ð) oiwirtxh dray :xne` dcedi iax.mei lkl xpic,zaya mixpic dray dzaezkn dl :xne` iqei iax.daezk `ll d`iven Ð okn xg`le.dzaezk cbpk cr,jlede zget `ed izn cr.(xpic.dpnid daeb xg` mewnn dyexi dl letz m`y cr jlede zget `ed mlerl mitiqen Ð qpxtn epi`e of ipi` xne`yk mb,`pipg iaxa iqei iaxl e`,yinyzn ezy` lr cxend oke xky zlhepk d`xp dl mitiqeny oeik Ð zay caln mei lkl xpic],zaya mixpic dyly dzaezk lr lr zcxend qpw jkl,xzei dyw yi`d ly exviy oeike].oiwirtxh dyly :xne` dcedi iax.[zay.[ezy` lr cxend lyn lecb dlra,ef xg` ef zezay rax` zeyxcn izae zeiqpk izaa zcxend lr mifixkn eidiy epnpe exfg epizeax dl ezgtie edyi `l ef drcl).zcqtd Ð dpn d`n jizaezk elit`y zrcei ied :oic zia dl oigleye dl migley miinrt :`ng xa inx xn`.(lkd dciqtn dfxkd ly zezay rax` xg`l `l` hrn hrn `axe.epizeaxk dkld :`cqg ax xa ongp ax yxc.dfxkd xg`l zg`e dfxkd mcew zg`,oic zian.wleg