Story by SwatiKumari. Photography SauravAnuraj. Produced, Written by. Directed by SwatiKumari&SauravAnuraj. Costume & Styling RitikaRanjan

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2 Story by SwatiKumari Photography SauravAnuraj Produced, Written by SwatiKumari Directed by SwatiKumari&SauravAnuraj Costume & Styling RitikaRanjan Production Design SurjeetKumar TheTroupe Amayra:RitikaRanjan Maya:KeshaSingh Inayat:SwatiKumari Ruchika&Kamya:PreetiSinha Rudra:Anshuman Ryan:JeevamKashyap Ekansh:AshokKumar OtherCharacters: KumarSanjay,Priyanka, SarojSinha,Amarjeet, AnkitBhardwaj

3 Copyright 2016 Swati Kumari All rights reserved. Address Adzone, 34, Shashi Palace, Nala Road, Patna All rights reserved by author. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise, without the prior permission of the author. Published by author. The views expressed in this book are entirely those of the author. The printer/publisher, and distributors of this book are not in any way responsible for the views expressed by the author in this book. All disputes are subject to arbitration; legal actions if any are subject to the jurisdictions of courts of Kolkata, India. ISBN: First Published: August 2016 Price: ` 1350/- A dot means full stop. And full stop doesn't mean an end, always. It is to begin a new sentence, a new paragraph, a new chapter or a new story of a book. Your life is a book. Distributed by purushottam-bookstore.com power-publishers.com flipkart.com amazon.in infibeam.com paytm.com readwhere.com ebay.in Let's make a dot for a new beginning! #DotToStartAgain

4 Acknowledgement! Prologue from author Words fall short to express my gratitude towards all those who contributed directly and indirectly. When I finished writing the first draft of the book, I needed feedback. Thank you Kumar Akash, Prithika Thaman and CSP for being my first readers and motivating me at each phase. Saurav Anuraj and Ritika Ranjan, this book would not have come true without your support. Big thanks to team Amayra : Kesha Singh, Amarjeet, Ravi Raj, Vrikesh Bhaskar, Anshuman, Santshree Sinha, Sanchit kumar Singh for your all efforts. Alok Sarkar and Richa Verma for editing my manuscript. Publishing a book is far more than writing a book. I can't describe in the words, a big hug to Richa Verma for your every support. Thank you Amit Upadhyay, Tanay Sharma, Rahul Rajhans and Kislay Gaurav for supporting in all aspects. Nayee Banerjee, Pinaki Ghosh and their entire team for supporting me in publishing my dream book. I am thankful to Marie Abbo (ESC-Pau, France), Akku Pahlajani and his entire Sahai team, Caroline Daly, Prof. Ella Arensman, Dr. Sateesh Babu and IASP for believing in my project and and supporting my objective of writing this book. I am blessed to have my friends who supported me in all ways and not bothering when I am not responding to their calls, messages and mails. Prabhat Ranjan, my brother Abhishek Singh and my entire family, for all the love and blessings they showered upon me and also letting me do my thing even when I am not able to see them for twenty hours, being in the same house. My cousins Arunesh Singh, Rahul Singh, Shashank Kashyap, Preeti Sinha, Pranjal Kashyap, Ishika Kashyap, Pratyush, Rahul Sinha for always being there with me. A big thanks to my readers for loving my work. I am nothing without you all. There is no one who has not come across a suicide news. Suicide by celebrities, techies, business tycoons, students or by any other common person. As per the WHO data, more than people die by suicide every year across the globe. Every 40 seconds a life is lost through suicide. In India, in every 3 seconds, a person attempts to die and is the leading cause of death in the age-group between years. 37.8% in India are by those below the age of 30 years and 71% of suicides are by persons below the age of 44 years. Based on this parameter, the worst countries were North and South Korea, Guyana, Lithuania and Sri Lanka. While the world average number of suicides due to all causes is 11.6 per 100, 000 India's annual suicide rate is 10.5 per 100,000. It occupies the 12th position in the world. Internationally, suicide accounts for 50% of all violent deaths in men and 71% in women. In India, the male-to-female ratio is 1.6. Until October 2013, these were nothing more than news for me. Like everyone, I too had never imagined that such things could ever happen in my life or with my loved ones. Then, one incident changed my life. When I was away from home, one horrid morning I got news that my mom had commit suicide. Within a fraction of second, I was shattered entirely and felt that nothing left in my life. I started surfing online more about the suicide cases and the suicidal behaviour. While my research I came to know about IASP (International Association for Suicide Prevention) and found that there are so many NGOs working for this cause all over the world. I visited few of the NGOs in India to understand how they work. A person going through such phase does not know what to do or whom to approach with his or problems; as he does not want to trouble his friends or family. We never realise that someone close to us might be suffering from suicidal thoughts. I realised that in India, very less number of people are aware of such NGO and suicide prevention helpline. Then I decided to create something fascinating to spread the message that how one can win the battle of darkness inside himself. Then I wrote Amayra: The essence of life, with one goal in mind: to publish a photo-story book to create the awareness about suicide prevention and the NGO helpline. The mission of creating Amayra: 1. To create awareness about suicide prevention. 2. To impart the message that suicide can't be a solution to any problem and help people in thinking for a better way out. 3. To create awareness about NGO's working for suicide prevention across the world. Enjoy reading this book and pass around the message of the book to the macrocosm.

5 Foreword Foreword At the outset one has to appreciate the attitude and determination of Swati Kumari who has written this photo story book following her mother's suicide and in the midst of bereavement. In Indian culture, usually people avoid sharing or discussing the suicide of family members due to stigma, but Swati is brave enough to contribute for the purpose of suicide prevention. Swati has done a great job in bringing out the book AMAYRA :The essence of life to create awareness of those working in suicide prevention across the world, spreading the message that suicide is not a solution to any problem. Few Indians know that there are Non-Governmental Organisations (NGOs) working in the area of suicide prevention who can provide invaluable help to them when they are in despair. Swati with the character of Amayra in this book clearly depicts the current state of mind of many people, particularly young Indians, striving for success, jobs, money, love and power with almost insatiable desires. For some this drive can cause us to slowly move from a world of happiness into a mist of desperation and even depression or suicidal behaviour. Prof. Ella Arensman His name was Thomas. Young clever creative, he was a community manager. I still remember the first day I met him. Long hair, smiling face, he was talking about his job with passion and enthusiasm. I knew my MBA students would love him and I asked him to come and teach them e-communication. His lessons were AMAZING and my students were so happy to have a professor like him, so dedicated and friendly. The last time I saw him, he told me that he had some problem with his job. Then we discussed the batch he will have to teach this year and nothing more. A few weeks later, I learnt that he committed suicide... I was completely disoriented and two questions were always in my mind: Why? And What could I have done to avoid this tragedy...time is running. His smile is still in my mind and I still don't have answers to those two questions.' I met Swati Kumari in France. She was my student in ESC- Pau. A brilliant, sensitive and so cheery girl. I really appreciate her and we are in contact even after she completed her MBA. I did not know much about her life, but I knew that she wanted to write a book and I was extremely happy when her novel "Without A Goodbye" was published. I love to see people making their dreams come true. But this novel is more than a novel. The slow descent of Amayra into depression is clearly portrayed by the author in both words and photographs. When Amayra was harboring ideas of suicide, Swati introduces us to a character named Inayat who counsels her and brings out her from crisis using wonderful phrases like If you could dare to give up the life, better give up the cause of the problem, Fall in love again with your life, Life is beautiful, give life a chance, Don't give up without a Good-bye. Inayat is a role model for not only all NGOs, counsellors and those working in health services, but also for every one of us. We all have a role to play in suicide prevention. Swati Kumari has portrayed an important message in a simple, visual and verbal way, understandable to all. This year's World Suicide Prevention Day theme Connect, Communicate and Care is sincerely and effectively honoured by the author. This book has a place in all of our homes and needs to be complimented by more and more efforts towards suicide prevention in India. Our sincere congratulations to Swati Kumari for her admirable determination and achievement in creating this wonderful resource. Swati Kumari is an inspiration to all of us working in suicide prevention and beyond. Dr. Sateesh Babu National Representative of India, International Association for Suicide Prevention Prof. Ella Arensman President, International Association for Suicide Prevention Ireland Now Swati is presenting another great project, a book for creating awareness about suicide prevention. Suicide is a tragedy which impacts so many people. With her talent,her sensibility, her work I know she will do it and I want to support her initiative. She is doing a remarkable job. Swati must go ahead with her project. We also need to go ahead with her and support her keeping in mind all the people we know and who have chosen the dark side of the Life. We Have to support Her for all the people who are thinking about suicide and who don't find solutions or help. Her book, Amayra- The essence of Life is a Light, a Chant of Hope, a Hymn to the Life. We Have to support her in her mission to prevent suicides. Merci and good luck dear Swati and Thank you for giving me the opportunity to do something in the memory of Thomas. Warm regards Dr Marie Helen Abbo Academic Head of Intl Programs École supérieure de commerce de Pau, France

6 Foreword I met Swati a year ago when she was in Bangalore and wanted to be a volunteer with our NGO - SAHAI Suicide Prevention Helpline. She introduced me to her book, WITHOUT A GOODBYE. The next few hours were a learning experience for me as she shared the personal tragedy that Life dealt her. In spite of her loss and grief, she was positive and related to me how she wanted to reach out to others in distress. She wanted to start an online campaign against suicide and write another book to make people aware of the thought - LIFE YOU'RE WORTH IT. S P E C I A L T H A N K S! It is indeed heartening to hear from her that her online campaign has been a resounding success. Her new book promotes the message that no matter how depressed, dejected, worthless or hopeless one feels one should not give up. Self-harm is not the solution. There is help available in the form of helplines, where trained counselors are available to listen to you with empathy and without being judgmental. When you're feeling worthless and helpless, you need to REACH OUT for help. Her mantra is simply this. Life is beautiful. Celebrate Life. Love Life. Believe in yourself. Don't give up on yourself. Let all of us be a part of this mantra. International Association for Suicide Prevention (IASP) Akku Pahlajani Coordinator Sahai Suicide Prevention Helpline adzone

7 1AmayrawasborninthekingdomofLIFE. Godsentheronearthtosoakandimmerseherselfinthe splendourandexquisitenesshecreatedonearth. 11

8 2 Amayrawassocontentinhersmallworldofherfamily andfriends. Theripplesofherebony-blackhairflowedtoadornher glowing,bronzedskin.hersparklingdarkeyes,fringedby longlashesbrightenedtheworld.whenshesmiled, theworldwouldsighwithpleasure.whenshelaughed, theworldwouldchortlewithher.andhersongsspread joy,sparklinglikestarsspangledonthenightsky. 13

9 3 Oneday,Maya-thequeenofDARKNESSsawAmayra. Lo!Whatdidshesee?Sofullofenergy,carefree,radiantand ebullient,amayra-abeautypersonified. 'Howcouldamortalbesopleased?'AstonishedMayawondered. 15

10 4 'No!Thiscan'tbe!'thoughtthedisturbedMaya. 'Ruchika...!!!'Thunderedshe. Inaflashshecame. YouRuchika,myemissaryofincessantand insatiabledesire,gotoamayraandviolateher peaceandjoy,stingherwithyourblackvenom ofambitionandwishtoown! 17

11 5 Inthekingdomoflife,thatday,thechariot ofthesunwasgivenamistychase.thedark cloudsconcealedthesky,fadingawaythe goldandfilledtheairwithgroansofagony. Amayra'sbrowcreased.Shesenseda murkinessandgloominthemilieu. Thereis somethingamiss! remarkedshe.such thoughtswereprickingherforthefirsttime. 6 'Ihavetodecodethemissingessence'. Thinkingaloud,Amayrasteppedoutofher smallworldandsetoffonherjourneyoflife. Whatshedidseewasthateveryonewas running.runningsofast!sprintingstraight withoutpausing,evenforawhile! Nopauseforalittlerest! Nopauseforintrospection! Nopauseforjoyorjubilation! Nopauseeitherforreflection! Whatisthis?!? Amayradidnotknow. 19

12 7 'Stopforawhileandenlightenme,whythisloping?'Sheenquiredaman. 'Notime!'Offhewent. Amayratriedtoaskfewothersthesamequestion,'Whyaretheyracing? Andwherearetheygoing?' Shegotadifferentansweryetasimilarone,fromall. 'Togetmoremoney!' 'Foragoodjob...' 'Tofindtruelove..' 'Toearnmorenameandfame..' 'Tobefirst..' 'Togetmore...' 'Idon'tknow..' Howeverdifferenttheanswerswere,buttherewasonecommonstring, bindingallanswers.nooneknewwhereonewasrunningto.the unknownhorizon,neverreallyreached! 21

13 8 ofattaininghermissingessence. Nevertheless,confusedthoughshewas,shereadied herselftoracealongwiththemwithashimmeringhope 23

14 9 'Ahwell,atrueHUMAN,thisAmayraisNow!' AgladdenedMaya,gloated. ForAmayra,too,nowhadthedesireforlove,endlesswealth, highpositioninsociety,success AndAmayra... Thedazzlesoftheworldengulfedher! Herpaceincreasedexponentiallywitheach pacecovered. 25

15 11 Amayra'sgrannysawherrunningandcalledoutfromback. 'Whyareyourunningmychild?' 'Ihavetocomefirst..,''shereplied,withoutslackeningher paceabit. 'First?Inwhat?'aperplexedgrannyaskedagain. 'Notimetoexplaingranny!Someothertime..' Thepoorwomancouldonlywatchherfadingintothe millingcrowd. 27

16 12 Whythisbreak-neckpacenow,Amayra? Perplexedfriendsaskedher. Youareatthetopalready.Aleaderamongus! 'Ihavetogetagoodjobandsuccess.'Shereplied. 'Goodjob..?Youalreadyhaveaprestigioushighpayingjob.'They askedagain. However,Amayra,didshehearthequestionatall?Streakingpastall passingshadowsandfigures,aheadsheshotherself! 29

17 13 Amayrawasstillsprintingintheunendingrace. Herconcernedparentsaskedher.'Youarerunning evennow,butwhatfor?' Amayralookedintotheireyesandsmiled. ForLove...TrueLove! 31

18 14 Thepathstretchedon!Lo!Whatahandsome face!ahitwasrudra! Hetoohadbeenrunninginthemarathonfor alittlelongertime. Nowtheirpacesynchronized. 15 Itfounditsmarkandlovebloomed. MayasentheremissaryKamya,thetwinsisterofRuchika, toshootanarrowofcupidonamayraandrudra. 33

19 16 Theduo,soulmatesforever! Lovehadenvelopedthemilieu.AmayraandRudra decidedtocontinuetherestoftheirjourneytogether. 35

20 17 18 And...trulyblessedwerethey! Blessedwith'abundleofjoy',Ryan, thefruit(souvenir)oftheirlove. Andtherace... stillon! Nowtherewere threetrudging together. 37

21 20 Whathappened,whathasgonewrong? Rudrawasalittlefar.Amayrapulledhimcloser,caressed hischeekandlookedintohisdeepmysteriouseyes. 19 Timeflees.Budsspring,flowersbloomandthenwilt. Butthelovedidn't. Yetoneday,sensingtheirpacenotbeinginsame rhythm,amayracriedout, Rudra! 39

22 21 Theeyes...stillsearching... farfrombeingcontent. Amayraturnedtomove. Rudraheldhertightlyand asked,'..nowforwhat'? 41

23 22 Tearswelledupinhereyesandbreakingthedamsrolled downthecontoursofherwell-definedarchedcheekand furtherdownthechin. 'Somethingwentwrongornothingisright..tofindmy happiness..myidentity..icouldn'tgetwhatiwasrunning for..' AndshemovedonleavingRudraandRyan. 43

24 23 Amayrakeptmovingaheadandcametoo far.however,yetthehorizontiltedbeyond! 45

25 24 Onceshethoughttoturnbackorlookforanewway,butshe couldn'tdaretotakearisk.muchfarshehadcome. Oh,whysuchdesolation?OhRudra!OhRyan!Ohwherearethey? Sheexperiencedlonelinessinsidehermind. 47

26 25 Shesensedtheblacknessengulfingtheatmosphere,asthe goldentintbegantofade. Walkingahead,sheenteredthekingdomofDarkness. Andwhoshouldbewaitingthere? Maya,QueenMaya,hermenacingpealsoflaughterreplicatingin thedesolatewilderness. 49

27 26 27 Youdarkness-unhandme?Wheredoesthisdarktunnelend? Whenwillthelightattheendofthetunnelappear? Shemoaned. Amayrawantedtogetawayoftheabsolutebleakdarkness,but, Amayrafelttwitchyandrestlessasthe pooramayra!ahwretched!shecouldn'tseethewayoutinthe suffocatingairdrapedher.herheartfilledwith pervasiveshadows,thoughsoclearitwas! anxiety, Whattodonow?Wheretogonext? Thethoughtsstifledher. 51

28 28 viciouscircle! Amayrafelt,allsobizarre! Oh!Thisnoisomelull!Entrapped,utterlyIaminthe 53

29 29 Shewantedtofleefromthedarknessatanycost. Shewasgettingbizarre. Merciless 55

30 31 Ekanshwaswitnessingthisandhis heartfilledwithwretchedness.he wasacquaintedwithveracitythat thattrailwouldneverescortamayra totheempireoflifeagainneither wouldshebeafreewillever. Thispathisevenmoredifficult, shovestotherealmofhell! 30 Intheabsolutedark,theonlywaytocomeout,Amayracould see,wastolethersoulfree,whichcouldleadherfreedomfrom thedarknessandtheproblems. Asshetreadedforth,sweatspreadacrossherforeheadand bloodmeltedawayhersoul. 57

31 32 Ekanshwasasoulwhohadgonethroughthesame passageandwalkedaheadthewaydarknessguided. Itcouldn'tsolvehisproblemneitherhecouldbefree fromworries,desiresandpain. GodpunishedEkanshforwalkingaloneandchasing thedarktrail,sentencedhimtorestinhellforever. Moreover,hecouldnevercomebacktotellanyone ortoregret. 33 Ekanshwantedintenselytorescue Amayraandlethergiveachanceinstead ofleavingwithoutagoodbyetoall. 59

32 34 Amayrascreamedandcried.Noneofherfriendsheard,noneof herfamilycametocomforther.theywerebehind,faraway. Amayraclutchedherhearttightly,nailsdiggingintoherflesh. SheshriekedtoGoddessofMercy.'PleaseGod...Iwanttogiveone moretry,helpmetocomeout...showmetheway...!' 61

33 35 36 TheGoddessofMercyandLifesummoned Inayat,herangelandsenthertosaveAmayra. Inayatunlockedasmalldoorthathadopening fromthekingdomoflightandpulledamayra outofthedarkness. 63

34 37 Amayrawascrying. InayathuggedAmayratoenlivenandcomfort herandasked,'whyareyoucrying?' 65

35 38 'Ilosteverything.Ifailedateverystep.I couldn'tdoanythinginmylife.' Inayatwipedoffhertearsandsaid, 'Whatothersseeisdifferentthanwhat youfeel. Beingquietisnotalwaysaboutbeingshy. Youmightbefightingforalongtime Fightingwithinyourownself Tryinghardtocomeout Tofindawaytothelight. But, Atsomepoint youfeel that, youfailed. Youfailedoffighting(ateverything youtried) youfailedoftrying(atmakinglifea success) Andcouldn'tfindanyway tocomeoutofthedarkness. Youdecidetoleave Togiveup Withoutonemoretry, withoutonemorefight, withoutonemoreargument Sometime, withoutagoodbye. Stopforawhile, Themomentyoufeel, youfailed. Thisisallthatyoufeel Butisnotafact!' 67

36 39 Amayrawasstillcryingandmumbling,'But failed,ifailed.howcouldifacemyself?' Inayatcaressedherandsaid, 'Stillthereisawaytocomeout fromthedarknesstothelight. Thereisnothingwrong, inbeingimperfect. Nothingwrong innotreachingyouraim We,thehumanbeings, can'tgeteverythingasweplanned. Thereisnothingwrong infailingandinacceptingthat.' Amayra,'ButIlostmylove,my family...whomwillilivefor?' Inayat, 'Godhasmade eachpairinheaven. Thereisnothingtodie forthebrokenrelationships. Itisyourheart letitbeatsometimeonlyforyou itisyoursoul letitbeallyours.' 69

37 40 Amayra: 'ButhowIreachedhere?' Inayat: 'Becauseyouwererunninginablindrace. Runningfastandstraightinthefearoflosing. Leavingothers, youmoveddeserted. Youneverdaredtowalkanddiscover theotherbeautifulroads throughthewoods. Youworesomanymaskstohide therealfeelings withoutlettingitoutandexpressandflow. 71

38 41 Amayrawasstillnotconvinced. 'ButIhavenothingleftnow.' Inayatlookedintohereyes. 'Stopworryingaboutwhatyoulost. Youwillnevergetitback. Realisewhatyouhavenow, Beforeyouhavetorealiseagain whatyouhadandyoulostit. Everysunsetendstheday tobeginanewday tocreatenewstory withanewzest. 73

39 42 Amayra: 'wherewouldigonow?' Inayat: 'Youcan'tholdbackthetime, socherisheachmoment youhaveinthislife. Andcreatebeautifulmemories forthefuture,toremember. Marchahead, notonlywith theconfidence,dream,ambition. Butalsowithabelief. Staystronger, Youmayfallthousandsoftimes butwillriseupagain. Lifeisalwaysbeautiful Trytoseeitdifferently overandagain.' 75

40 43 Filledwithloveandlight,theessenceof blissfullife. Atthezenithoftheendlessjourneys,Amayra decipheredthemissingessenceofherlife. Differentexperiencesandtheeverchanging lifewasthatzing. Meaningoflife,herlife. Andshewasreadyforhernextstepsintoa newworld. ** Youneverfail. Sometimesyouneedtostopseeingyourlifefrombehindthe sameglassyouarewearing. Tochangetheoldonewiththenewglassesofyournewattitude. Youneed, someoneelsetoholdyourhandtounlockthehiddendoors. Ifyoucoulddaretogiveupyourlife, Better,giveupthecauseoftheproblem. Fallinloveagain,withyourlife. Lifeisalwaysbeautiful, Givelifeachance Don'tGiveup, WithoutAGoodbye! ** 77

41 INTERNATIONAL SUICIDE HOTLINES Inreallife,GoddessofMercyexistsinthedisguiseof SUICIDEPREVENTIONHELPLINE.Ifyouoranyofyour lovedonefeelsasiftrappedinasimilarsituationofthe darkness,reachoutthehelplineandtheircounsellor wouldhelpyoutoseetheworldwithanewzestallagain, likeinayat. 1 Argentina Centro de Valorizacion de la Vida Samaritanos Codigo Mar del Plata Hotline: + 54 (0) Helpline: samaritanosargentina@hotmail.com 2 Armenia Trust Social Work and Sociological Research Centre Yerevan Hotline: (2) Hotline: (2) Australia The Samaritans, Subiaco 60 Bagot Road Subiaco, PERTH Hotline: Hotline: Youthline: Hotline: Freecall Countryline: Hotline: TTY: Website: thesamaritans.org.au 4 Austria Lifeline Australia National Contact by: - Phone Hotline: Website: lifeline.org.au 5 Barbados Samaritans of Barbados PO Box 328, Bridgetown, W. Indies Hotline: (246) Helpline: samaritansbdos@yahoo.com 6 Belgium Community Help Service Hotline: +32 (0) Website: chsbelgium.org 7 Belgium Centre de Prévention de Suicide Secrétariat 46, place du Châtelain Brussels Hotline: Website: preventionsuicide.be 8 Botswana Lifeline Hotline: Brazil AMA National Association Hospital de Pronto Socorro Largo Teodor Herzl S/NO Primero Andar CEP 90035/191 PORTO ALEGRE - SP Website: samaritanos.cjb.net 10 Canada (DCO) Distress Centre Niagara Ontario Hotline: +1 (905) Hotline: / Website: dcontario.org 11 China Beijing Suicide Research and Prevention Center Hotline BEIJING Hotline: Free: Hotline: Mobile/IP/extension users: Website: crisis.org.cn 12 Cyprus Cyprus Samaritans PO Box , PAPHOS Hotline: Hotline: / Military 2345 Website: cyprussamaritans.com Helpline: samscy@hotmail.com 13 Croatia Plavi Telefon Ilica 36 Zagreb Contact by: - Phone 16Hotline: (01) Website: plavi-telefon.hr 14 Denmark Livslinien Postboks Kobenhavn K , COPENHAGEN Hotline: Website: livslinien.dk 15 Egypt Befrienders Cairo 61 Al Zahara St Jeddah St Mohyaldeen, Muhandesen CAIRO Hotline: /3 Hotline: Website: befrienderscairo.com Helpline: befrienders@befrienderscairo.com 16 Estonia Eluliin (Estonian Lifeline) PO Box TALLINN Hotline: Website: eluliin.ee Helpline: eluliin@jofo.ee 17 Fiji Finland Ba Methodist Lifeline Counselling Service PO Box 192, BA Hotline: (0679) France Suicide Ecoute Paris Contact by: - Phone Hotline: Website: suicide.ecoute.free.fr 19 Germany International Helpline Berlin Postfach , BERLIN Hotline: 6-12pm English service: Hotline: Russian service: Website: international-helpline.com 20 Ghana Lifeline Abrepo-Highways Quarters BLK F, Snr. Staff Lane KUMASI Hotline: Hong Kong The Samaritans G.PO Box 7953 Hong Kong Hotline: Website: samaritans.org.hk Helpline: jo@samaritans.org.hk 22 Hungary SOS Telefon Lelkisegely Alapitvany Kossuth L. sgt SZEGED Hotline: (62) Website: pharereg.hu Helpline: sostelefon@deltav.hu 23 India SAHAI Helpline C/o Medico Pastoral Association 47 Pottery Road Fraser Town Bangalore Karnataka,India Address:sahaihelpline@gmail.com Telephone Ireland Samaritans UK & ROI National Contact by: Face to Face - Phone - Letter: - Hotline: +44 (0) (UK - local rate) Hotline: +44 (0) (UK minicom) Hotline: (ROI local rate) Hotline: (ROI minicom) Website: samaritans.org Helpline: jo@samaritans.org 25 Israel "ERAN" (-ï"øò) Hotline: 1201 Hotline: Tel from abroad: Website: 1201.org.il/

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43 About the author Swati Kumari is an author of best-selling debut novel, Without A Goodbye. Her upcoming book, Amayra has already started creating the buzz. God had sent Amayra on earth to experience the beauty he created in the form of nature and to relish the life. But she couldn t be left unaffected from the in uence of Maya and join the path others were following. At the zenith of the endless journeys, Amayra deciphered the missing essence of her life. And she was ready for her next steps into a new world. Swati was born and raised in Kanpur, lived in different cities across the country and presently lives in Patna with her family. She completed her MBA from the National School of Business- Bengaluru and International Management from ESC Pau- France. Swati left her marketing job to ful l her dream of becoming an author. She is fond of travelling, exploring new places and experiencing the diversity all over the world. You can nd her on Facebook, Instagram (@ SwatiKumarI.Swatz) or on Twitter (@swatz14) Who was Maya? Who was Amayra? What was that missing essence? Where did Amayra go. About the photographer Saurav Anuraj Saurav Anuraj is a fashion and wedding photographer and founder of Meow Studio. His work has been published in magazines like Femina. Amayra is the rst photo story book photographed by him. Born and raised in Patna, Saurav dropped out of engineering at VIT-Vellore after the rst semester and joined MAAC- Delhi to ful l his dream of becoming a photographer. Printed & Distributed by Other than photography, he is interested in music and travelling. You can nd him on Facebook(@sauravmeow) and Instagram (@sauravanuraj) Price: ` 1350/-